Being An Empath

Which means I am given a gift of deep discernment based off others ENERGY. Its taken me a long time to learn how to operate in this gift. Learning to work through ALL my EMOTIONS that are not meant to rule ME. (RHONDA!) Learning self control and to continue to stop operating in FEAR. Which I know now is for ME and not for others to understand. I use to say, I dont know how and I wish that I didnt have this gift. Now realizing I was using it for things that were not meant for me to use outside my control and from a spirit of fear. I was always driven by the desires of my heart but from an unhealed heart. Also learning that sharing the things I was being shown, it only created division bc what is for me, isnt for the next person. It is for me to use this gift and then activate it in any way that is directing MY LIFE. Which also means what is being revealed to me. I dont need to always try to control and always confront but to be directed, let go and let god. This gift is why I even feel low energy from anyone even inside of a church building that isnt giving off high vibrations and is trying to be obedient by the looks or the works on the outside. Which is why so many get hurt even inside a church building bc in any church building there is a motive to win souls yes but hurt people hurt people. I am just as SPIRITUAL at home then I am inside a church building. Believe me I love the presence of God , singing, praising, crying, healing and being fed the word which is ALL good. But being in church since my mom had me in a catholic church, only made me question why are we so divided with so many denominations and as an adult led me to dig deeper and just last year I came to find out A LOT of what was taught to me, I have had to unlearn. Since this break through, I have had so much weight lifted off my shoulders as i lived in bondage religiously and now I activate in my gifts to help LET GO, lead, guide and direct my steps.