Who says IM PERFECT?

My life is a complete mess and who’s family isnt behind closed doors.

However, over the years I have removed certain friends and family from having access in my life that continues to try to break me down. It comes a time when anyone (including me) to make better choices for themselves but you can lead a horse to water but you cant make them drink or respect you. but the one you have control of is YOU. It gets to the point after so many years staying in a vicious cycle finding yourself in the same situation year after year. The shit becomes a choice. It comes a time when you have to say fuck all these half truths and own up to your own bs. I always have and will bring anything out behind closed doors because IDGAF. When anyones energy gets to the point of literally draining the life out of me. My boundaries will be set and you either respect it or you dont. Also go ahead and add anything you want to say about me to make me look like the villan if it makes you feel better as a person to justify the situation. The bravest thing I have ever done is owning up to my own bs, taking up for myself and if that makes me the villan SO BE IT. Im over the shit and the shit has gotten old. Its time for REAL CHANGE. Anyone that isnt happy for my happiness aint my problem either. Happiness comes from within and till one stops self sabotaging learning to love themselves they will not know how to love anyone else or in any living condition and end up in the same situation every time. No matter how much you run. Believe me I know bc I have tried to run from my problems but I always had to come back and face whatever trial it was at the time.

It takes one hell of a brave woman to piss people off by merely existing or knowing I am no longer manipulated.

I have learned taking up for myself, setting boundaries, not allowing continued disrespectful behavior and living on my own terms irritates the hell out of people. Tough love and accountability isnt meant to feel good. I will not tolerate patterns of anyones behavior that is self sabotaging. That continues to stay in a victimized mindset, using the past as an excuse to stay comfortable in their misery or to continue to stay in a pattern that does not benefit them in any way but keep digging themselves in a bigger rut. That never takes accountability for their actions but always uses any kind of manipulation to justify their own.

I merely am speaking on myself bc my worse critic is the one in the mirror and fighting to not give up on top of worrying about the opinions of others only made things harder for me to get out of a victimized mindset. It don’t matter what age or anyones circumstance. Thats where it all begins. When I wanted change, I fought for change and during the process, it was messy. Its all about progress, not perfection. We all have feelings and our feelings matter but the important thing is that we see growth within ourselves and those around us.